It's been a while since I last post something here. Somehow there isn't anywhere for me to pen down my thoughts so here I am trying to sort my feelings today. Firstly, today wasn't a good day at all. I felt really depressed cause I feel fat about myself. I know I'm not those super hot girls or skinny or tone girls out there and i do gain weight when i had too much good food and yet i have done nothing so far. I did try jogging and exercise and then i stop a while and today, I wanted to go and have a early jog make up of the sinful dinner i had last night. But I end up sleeping till early afternoon. Instead of having to feel all these negative feeling about myself, I really want to start pushing myself to exercise not to be skinny but to be fit an tone. This i got to keep telling myself.
For this next part, I really do not know how to pen it down. It just mixture of feelings everywhere about things. There are some things i really want to sort them out but just never the right timing. Which leads to it being postponing every single time. Sigh, I am really feeling so messed up. Also, this is really stupid and yes I am that easily emotional. My brother got to eat the last slice of my birthday cake that was given to me by my boss. I ate them last night but of course I wanted to have them again today which i didn't get a chance to. I was so so mad about it that i cried. Silly of me but i was that meaningful to me cause she went through the trouble to remember the design of cake i like and picking up the cake yesterday and surprising me with it. Somehow negative attracts negative so when i start my day bad somehow it doesn't turn good at all through out. There are things i really want to say but you seems so far now.
Shall attempt to pen down more here, about events in my life.
