Mini Updates

Hi, I'm back! Lack of updates in this space and I have been so lazy to transfer pictures from my camera and iphone. And using my new laptop while all my other things are still in the old one. Makes me even lazier to get all the things into the new laptop. Shall not procrastinate anymore and start doing them. Just lazing around at home almost every day. Just watch finish one korean drama in one week time! Going to start working tomorrow onward, shall not keep myself at home it's making me shut out of the world and just be alone kind hahaha. I always love being around people, it makes me happy!

My weekends was spend with alvin, had a staycation and just eat and relax only! Met sheryl and winston for movie, Pitch Perfect! This movie is so awesome everyone just got to watch it! Was laughing and smiling during the show cause i was just so amaze by their voices. Don' mind catching it again if any of my friends wants to watch it. Then my manager's wedding on sunday afternoon where i get to see most of the FN girls!

Life as it is

I guess it's alright since this is what I wanted or wish to happen and it has I just have to accept it. I may have my own protective or selfish thoughts cause I'm afraid of getting hurt or losing someone. And if I'm always scared of this I'll just push more people away from me. This is not what I want, what I want is to have everyone around me be happy always. I'm taking the risk, I'm getting myself out there. Even if I were to get hurt, at least that's a lesson learn. If I'm scared, I'll just lose people. If I'm brave, I might just be able to keep them by my side.

Thoughts @ 0030

Had such a fulfilling day today and there was time to relax and just travel from one place to another! Such things don't come by so often and I'm so happy with the whole day. The company was just awesome, talking about everything under the sun. Felt good to have said things out instead of keeping them inside me and listening to words of advice. The scenery was so comforting as well, i can just sit there and stare into the sky thinking of nothing but how amazing everything is. It's good for me, something from the usual going to town, shopping and eating. This however, i found happiness. Haven felt such happiness for a while now and the whole day was just filled with laughter and smiles, no worries at all! I'm going to make an effort to have this kind of outing from time to time.

This time round i had my own insecurities, felt out of place which i always encounter once in a while which left me feeling awful. But it's okay now, because at the end of the day I'm important even if I'm not to others but to myself at least i am. It's amazing how my bf can read me and understand me before i know it myself. Sometimes I wonder if I am that easy to read or he just know what is bothering me faster than i do. He sure is amazing :) 

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maybe i am sensitive to things these days. The words "it's expected to happen" scares me, two person told me this but that two person talk me out of it. Its comforting to know that it happens to bbg before and there she is now giving me advice for me but yet i'm afraid that things will end up bad too. What can i say, what can i do, how to react, i really don't know. I guess I'm sticking to take things one at the time and just let it go. It's quite contradicting that one minute you can say this and the other feel something else. Oh well, the mind and heart never work well together. Mind over matters.

Things fall apart so that better things can fall into place