1 more day!

where are you now?

lucky for my itouch that's keeping me occupied! hehe. getting use to it. putting all the applications i need. and lastly, goning to give baby a shock on monday! hope he doesn't read my blog and my twitter.

my sat was boring. just wake up. do my blogshop then my itouch. boring weekend i guess. got to start studying and my project!!!

It seem like a long time

I miss you.
and i have a surprise for you! hehe.

oh well need to clear my computer stuffs. freaking got a lot of repeated music and back up things into my hard disk! tired much! faster transfer lei!

From now on

This time round it's really my fault.

for not thinking before i do anything, making you unhappy.

i swear i don't mean to.

i'm sorry for not making you feel this wa. and now i know i won't make the same stupid mistake. cause it really is stupid of me. thanks for not leaving me. thanks for a second chance.

i'll try my best to not disappoint you.

words means nothing. i know cause it comes from me. i just have to gain back what i've lost from you.

i'm dead tired. shall blog a proper one soon. GOODNIGHT!

what is this

okay seriously it's a gut feeling.

i freaking have a feeling something bad is going to happen.

is it just me? omg! what the hell did i do again????????????

Feels so empty

Gosh. Just remembered that dream/nightmare. so scary! oh well. got no idea why i have such dreams. werid much. i'm hoping for a sweet dream these days. something to make my day/night. hahaha.

It's a boring day today. beside being a lightbulb. oh well. it's like that one lol. bo bian. hahaha. HCED was boring at first. didn't bring my stationeries. feel so empty. got labwork and I DIDN'T FINISH! so angry! baby didn't pass his driving test. sad for him. now i feel scared taking driving. next year! end of school was thinking of meeting baby but he meeting his friends. thought of going home with elena but she's not done eating. so home i go. make plans but wasn't successful.

been thinking alot lately. these days i have a lot alone time. though i kinda like the feeling being alone. but i haven been alone for quiet some time. so it feels werid suddenly. should get a book in my bag for me to read next. the thing i hate being alone is cause i will often think a lot. so many things that it makes me emo a little. remembered last time in secondary school, for a period of time, i just keep to myself. read my own book, don't bother to mix with anyone and etc. even my girlfriend was scared for me. she just came up to me and said 'Vanessa, can you not be like this? you're starting to scare me.' i almost cried and wish i could tell her everything but i didn't know where to start. it's too much already. now thinking back, it really is scary and i don't wish to repeat it again.

When i'm with you

I'm late for lab today again! the last lesson late already, this lesson also late. urgh! not good to have lesson at 8am cause i freaking have to wake up at 6am? wah!!!!!

slack day i guess but tiring. was with baby in the afternoon. he accompany me till my cds starts. then went for his driving. i left my books with him, freaking forgetful lah me. after cds met jon to pass his socialogy book then went for dinner at subway. met a new friend today call jia min. thier friend. hahaha. her birthday was today. anyway baby came and find me to pass me my books. if not tmr i don't want to bring so many books home.

I've got 2 projects to do this week. crap! and it's only 2 more weeks to term test. WTH!!!! i'm so freaking not ready.plus im always skipping lectures AND I KNOW NOTHING!

okay i'm going to do my PSPS now. want to sleep early today.

Baby's driving test is tmr! hope he pass. hahaha. sure can one. i have faith in you! =)

just being with you,

i think i can hold myself together.

Pen my thoughts down

i've got no idea what to do already.

talk about serious? what is serious? i've got no idea.

i should have just played. oh well guess not. i'm not that kind of girl.

what to do when your heart aches so much that you wish someone could just stab you in the heart?

sometimes i wish i didn't get myself into this yet i still went for it.

what a silly girl.

if something goes wrong, i think i can never trust someone again.

cause by then i think i would have totally shut my heart away.

once is bad, twice is a killer, thrice? i might as well die.

i'm never the kind of girl to survive a heartbreak.

never will, never will be.

so please, don't.

Life is too short

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talking to elena on msn now. hahaha. advising her and all. this girl should really get rid of her bad habit. hahaha. she knows what im saying. thinking of the words i say to her. i'm really glad i face up to my feelings and i didn't let the chance go. then i wouldn't have been happier then i am now.

anyway also talking to laopo. hahaha she's complaining to me. =)

oh well. sorry for the lack of updates again.

so far i can remeber was

-my 3rd month was spent sleeping half the time only at night i got to meet my baby. hehe. HE FREAKING GOT ME A RIVER ISLAND WALLET! IT'S BLUE WITH LEOPARD PRINTS! LOVE IT SO MUCH AND OF COURSE HIM TOO.

-rebel music sucks i swear. no offence but that's my opinion. anyway that day wasn't a good one either. no drinks, some problems and im simpy tired plus music is so not good at all.

-went for otc orientation with elleen. swear she answer better then me but i really hope i can get in. PLEASE!!!!!!!!!! PRAY HARD FOR ME! AND NOT FORGETING ELLEEN, JON, WAN TENG AND YUN LOONG. it will be so fun if all of us got in! hehehe.

-keep skipping lectures and 1 tut. shit man. should stop this bad habit.

today: skip inht to see a doctor cause my flu and cough ain't getting well and now it's still not. and i also skip sociology lec. SHIT! bad habit, bad habit, bad habit.

okay got to catch some rest now. GOODNIGHT! XOXO

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Anyway took the pictures for my blog shop already. Not really what i expect it to be. oh well have to make do of these. hope people come and buy them. will put the link here when i launched my first collection! =)

Clubbing tonight! always just happen that next day is our anniversary. oh well, what a nice thing to do. guess we are not doing anything this month. busy busy. this sucks.

A little help here?

Even with you by my side.

Why do i still feel so unsure?

Like everything is all a dream.

What should i do? I seriously got no idea.

it's all about time. but how long?

oh well im always thinking so much.