5th Month

Happy 5th Month Baby!

spend the afternoon with elena. accompany her to shop around at bugis. had bad cramps on that day which ruining everything. my mood and all. went back to my house to meet baby for dinner. we share a set meal cause both of us were not very hungry. You guys should try it. It's at bedok simpang beside mad jack. It's a korean resturant. after which head back to my house to slack and eat the mango cake he brought for me. seeing him cheer me up a little. about 10plus he left to go home. that's about my last friday..

Sat was spend present hunting for my dear elleen which has finally turn 18 now!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY GIRL! so after going to diferent shop. we settled at pull and bear pullover. damn cute i swear so suit that girl man. after that went to get the box and card for her then ate pastamania. then train down to downtown east. was playing my poker game while jon and wanteng slept. when to the forzen yogurt to apply for jobs. maybe should try elena's job at parkway too. oh anyway walk to the bbq pit. the first thing elleen saw us was "omg! omg! omg!" hahahah. damn funny i swear. then sat there awhile then went off.

Sun stayed home cause of my cramps again. all 3 days i have them seriously ruined my mood. but i had good food for dinner. it's STEAK!!!! hahahahah. home cook on some more. didn't manage to get pictures. too lazy and don't really like my camera flash too bright. and i manage to watch vampire dairies. omg! the girl is freaking skinny and the 2 brother are so hottttttt..... hahahaha so that's my weekend

today almost late for lab. then help out for jae. super slack cause there wasn't much people. then grab bites before heading home to catch my 7pm show.

okay something just ruin my night. not that i blame anyone. but sometimes i feel why am i so forgetful??? always planning two things and it clashes and when i make them right again the other have to fail. feel so stupid and dumb for being so forgetful. feel like just banging my head in the wall and just keep banging till my damn brain knows how to be not forgetful. of course if i do that i will just die. the other thing is that why am i always thinking of others? trying my best to please both side and what i get in return is just left alone. maybe sometimes im like that i'm sorry but i try my best to never do that. i'm trying real hard here. i know the feeling of loneliness and it sucks to the core that i won't even want to feel it again. time to time i get that feeling back and it makes me want to cry. i'm real scared. i'm human too. starting to think i'm worthless man. at times i think that people are taking advantage of me still. i know i've change since secondary school. i don't regert this change. i became tougher and stand up for myself. though sometimes like some blur idiot and easily taken. when you don't do the right thing people will say you and when you do them no one will acknowledge. so what is right then?

oh well enough of the emo post. can't stand myself when i'm this either. so anyway tmr i've got lesson at 9am. maths! comfirm tweet again one. urgh! need to start opening my books! okay off i go now.