On the verge to cry

OMG! SAVE ME!!!!!

REALLY FEEL LIKE DYING NOW.

my papers i failed 2 of them. the last one yet to know. and this stupid intht project will kill me. i'm so damn tired now that i just want to sleep. like wtf!

i don't even know what to do for my project lah! no details all with i don't know who. fuck man! and i think next week is the submittion date. URGH! i'll go crazy at this point. with dissapointment to my papers. i hope my last paper is a pass. and the projects that are piling up. i think from tmr onwards i will have no life. shit this man. i can't cope, can i?

connection like bad only? shitty. but please please let me finish my research first kies.

Chirstmas eve

Gosh! i have no chirstmas mood at all. feels so different from last year which i was busy working and trying to squeeze everything in. I'm so broke i can't buy anything good for anyone. even though i want to get something for baby BUT I'M SHORT OF CASH! WTF can. And all my other close friends. that's one of the reason i'm not enjoying chirstmas. also this year no party no nothing. though i wanted to have a proper celebration with my family and cousins with nice dresses and suits? but guess none is going to work nowwww. feels like just any other day with a need to feel like it's special. FML!

Where's the chirstmas mood!?!?!?!?! why hasn't it hit me yet!

Past few days was just going out. pictures to be up soon. had fun at wanteng's house. played wii till my arms are aching now. my reaction are seriously lag by one. like stupid only. exchanging presents. like fun man! next year again please!!!!

Also ytd was spend with baby, sheryl and winston. wanted to catch a movie but failed. kinda dissappointed have been looking forward to a movie for quite long and yet it has to canceled. wasn't in the best mood ytd.

1.hate people whom stops in the middle of no where to either tie shoelances of whatever. just felt like pushing them away. LIKE HELLO! no common sense is it? don't know how to move aside to tie or what so ever. have to suddenly stop in the middle of no where!?!?!?! i mean put yourself in other's shoes. would you like it?

2. should know what is it. didn't manage to catch a movie

3. guess pms??? no idea. easily irriated. URGH!

so basically it's just these. got to have htht with baby. hahaha. talk to him until i cried a little. haha.

OH OH OH! DID I MENTION I SAW CHARLOTTE!?!?!?!?!?!?!

OMG! it's been like who knows how long i haven seen him. scream my head off when i saw her. was so damn happy.

like always i'm happy seeing my friends. especially when it's unexpected. it's make me even happier. and i also teared cause i'm so happy. hehehehehe.

when talking to baby. i realise some things. i only can see now and not the future. and i hope my future will have something to do with baby too. cause now i see no one but him. even though when there is a cute guy i will simply just say he's cute and nothing more. so i'm just going to see where it leads me to.

Also the other thing is. it's really simply just making me happy. like just seeing my friend and hug them i'm contented. i have lost some precious friends of mine and i journey through and some stayed by me making efforts to make us close together no matter what. and if ever anything were to happy i wish i can be there for her. sometimes i may seem like i don't care so what so ever but in the end you people are the ones i really cared for no matter what. cause if i lose these people i don't know how can i make my life as happier as i'm feeling now.

Really have to thanks these people whom are in my life.(it's not in order)

KELLY

ZANN

CHARLOTTE

ELENA

ROSY

JASLIN

SHERYL

ELLEEN

JON

WANTENG

YUNLOONG

AND LASTLY BABY!

THANKS ALOT FOR EVERYTHING! REALLY LOVE YOU GUYS MANY MANY!

SHAG ONLY!

MASQUERADE PARTY!

Just came back from otc on thurdays. It was three blast day! really love the people there. though it's tiring but it'a all worth it. 

Day 1: meet the usual for breakfast. was late as usual. hahaha. then after that met nafisah at mushroom first before walking to sports complex. so worried i won't know anyone inside. but lucky me i had jon and elleen in the same group. WE ARE FOLKEN!!!! also scared that i won't be so enthu but okay it's not bad still. and i swear im so forgetful. always forgetting things. make baby have to bring to school and give me. thanks so much. but at least i get to see you again. hahaha. lots of games, run here and there non stop.

Day 2: morning did cheers. after that was some talk. make me feel so damn sleepy. irrtating thing is the speaker kept asking us to stand up and down but it's to keep us awake but stilll.... it lasted like 2 hours plus? damn long! but his activites were fun. =) then was lunch before games again. then performance night. whoo, was a rush man. didn't get to go through once was so worried some where will screwed up. but heng never. then was night walk. lots of second thoughts but end up i didn't go. crap should have went really! sad sad sad. but oh well. i got t charge my phone, played some game.afte that watch the video of the storyline. was holding on to jon's hand cause i was scared. poor thing the other side was elleen. haha. after bathing and all just fell asleep soundly. 

Day 3: so damn tired. wouldn't wake up if i didn't see wanteng woke up. water games and huntgirt? i not sure how you spell that. i didn't finish the second part cause of my blisters on my feet. was hurting so badly while running and squarting down. after changing to my slippers was so much better. final clash also i didn't get to play. =( got to get myself a comfortable shoes for fo if i get in. which i hope all of us do. cause i haven had enough of getting to know everyone of them well enough. after everything end when to meet baby. supose to go for cpf building with folken but make arrangement with baby already. so sorry folken!!!! but after that still went to meet them. drag baby along. hehe. his friends went to clash also so at least his not lonely. went off early again as i was really tired. reach home got a call from elena dear she talk to me. sorry babe i was really tired.

Friday: sheryl called me damn a lot of time. and i was still late to meet them. brain was really dead. couldn't think much but still came up with some points for our project. then went home to get ready for masquerade and zouk after that. dance with baby the entire night. i was half high/drunk. tired leads to getting drunk fast. whooo. shag night i swear. music was AWESOME! but couldn't get to enjoy. went out first cause i was really tired and sleepy already. waited for them before cabbing home.