Chirstmas eve

Gosh! i have no chirstmas mood at all. feels so different from last year which i was busy working and trying to squeeze everything in. I'm so broke i can't buy anything good for anyone. even though i want to get something for baby BUT I'M SHORT OF CASH! WTF can. And all my other close friends. that's one of the reason i'm not enjoying chirstmas. also this year no party no nothing. though i wanted to have a proper celebration with my family and cousins with nice dresses and suits? but guess none is going to work nowwww. feels like just any other day with a need to feel like it's special. FML!

Where's the chirstmas mood!?!?!?!?! why hasn't it hit me yet!

Past few days was just going out. pictures to be up soon. had fun at wanteng's house. played wii till my arms are aching now. my reaction are seriously lag by one. like stupid only. exchanging presents. like fun man! next year again please!!!!

Also ytd was spend with baby, sheryl and winston. wanted to catch a movie but failed. kinda dissappointed have been looking forward to a movie for quite long and yet it has to canceled. wasn't in the best mood ytd.

1.hate people whom stops in the middle of no where to either tie shoelances of whatever. just felt like pushing them away. LIKE HELLO! no common sense is it? don't know how to move aside to tie or what so ever. have to suddenly stop in the middle of no where!?!?!?! i mean put yourself in other's shoes. would you like it?

2. should know what is it. didn't manage to catch a movie

3. guess pms??? no idea. easily irriated. URGH!

so basically it's just these. got to have htht with baby. hahaha. talk to him until i cried a little. haha.

OH OH OH! DID I MENTION I SAW CHARLOTTE!?!?!?!?!?!?!

OMG! it's been like who knows how long i haven seen him. scream my head off when i saw her. was so damn happy.

like always i'm happy seeing my friends. especially when it's unexpected. it's make me even happier. and i also teared cause i'm so happy. hehehehehe.

when talking to baby. i realise some things. i only can see now and not the future. and i hope my future will have something to do with baby too. cause now i see no one but him. even though when there is a cute guy i will simply just say he's cute and nothing more. so i'm just going to see where it leads me to.

Also the other thing is. it's really simply just making me happy. like just seeing my friend and hug them i'm contented. i have lost some precious friends of mine and i journey through and some stayed by me making efforts to make us close together no matter what. and if ever anything were to happy i wish i can be there for her. sometimes i may seem like i don't care so what so ever but in the end you people are the ones i really cared for no matter what. cause if i lose these people i don't know how can i make my life as happier as i'm feeling now.

Really have to thanks these people whom are in my life.(it's not in order)

KELLY

ZANN

CHARLOTTE

ELENA

ROSY

JASLIN

SHERYL

ELLEEN

JON

WANTENG

YUNLOONG

AND LASTLY BABY!

THANKS ALOT FOR EVERYTHING! REALLY LOVE YOU GUYS MANY MANY!