Memories are too important

Having all sort of feelings now. Words can affect me so badly. Why? Sometimes i feel i just mia from people or everyone. Being alone seems like a good deal. I'm wrong for sure cause i know being with your close ones are the things that make me ever so happy and cheerful. At the same time, spending time alone, i don't have to fear being hurt or said about or anything that will hurt me. It's just a nice feeling knowing you are safe on your own. Just don't like the feeling it gives me. Make me feel like i abandon everything.