Zann's 19th birthday

My dear laogong's 19th birthday. exactly 1 month away from my birthday. Didn't really talk to her much that day cause

1. I drop my laopo's camera. Felt so damn bad! =(

2. Lost all mood so wasn't in the happy and playful mood.

So i'm glad even though i didn't have her present with me that day. which means a belated one for her. I'll need to find something nice for her. I guess she enjoyed herself during the few hours? travelling to nyp is not funny man. it's so far! poor zhi lin got to cab down from tp. was suppose to cab down with her but i done super early. Oh! another thing why i wasn't feeling good that day was because. even though i have no school on that day. i still went to school appeal my cds, pass my friend the books. Everything was done in less than 10mins. and talking to bbg make me feel like a big idiot going back to school. Can anyone feel what i'm feeling? super sucks lol. was trying to find people to meet me but all just reply me so damn slow. so decided to just hurry down to meet laopo first then.

This week school was no a good one at all. seriously sometimes i feel i should fuck care certain people. And also i appeal my cds from monday to friday. even though i didn't have class on tuesday and thursday i still went school! wtf right and every time the email came is unsuccessful. No one could understand how much disappointment i have. No one could make me feel any better at all. FUCKING NO ONE! sigh. should i just give in? i wanted a cds that could pull up my gpa and this is what i got? Than what's the point of me trying so damn bloody hard on my fucking studies. i hate studying. i hate it more that i care so much about my studies that i only get this. FUCK! Than those people whom don't care about their studies get better grades than me? They don't deserve it at all! fucking don't! urgh! i think i'm too negative now. nothing good happens to me. i seriously don't know what i can do to save everything you know. i'm hating everything i have. At least let me meet nice and friendly people in leadership class please?

xoxo, Vanessa

Negative

Somehow my life or school or home all doesn't go the way I want it. To top it off my period is here having cramps and pmsing ain't helping me get any happy. I want this to be this. I hate getting something I don't like. I'm stubborn with what I want. I know that. And some how now I just want to be assured by people or just know that I have people I know around me. I'm not stepping out of my comfort zone yet. I'm not ready to meet new people. Now I just want to be near people I know. Not getting what I want is a disappointment. And the thing is I tried so hard and all they gave me was a unsuccessful answer. Sometimes I'm so irritated by myself already yet people have to irritate me more at home. You know the 'just leave me alone' sign. Even at home I'm out casting myself! What is wrong with me man!
Sigh. My complexion sucks. Due to period here. I wish not to have cramps and be pimple free forever. If everyone was like a barbie doll. I don't think anyone would complain. But life ain't perfect hur? It ain't fair. Why? I'm counted lucky I know. But what's with all the fairness people should get? Why are we taking things for granted? Sigh. So negative today. For now, I know I'm used to keeping myself shut at home. Some times I wish to keep myself out of everything. Like there is nothing happy to be happy about. So tired of drama. So tired of life. So tired of bothering about my studies. Everything. I'm tired of it.
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Sorry for the lack of updates! haven brought my camera out since im going to school and looking all slack and ugly. haha. but school is so far boring. i hear alien language in almost all lectures. haha. so far i'm still trying to appeal my cds to accounting. really want to get it. it's like a wish i must get! cause this sem i really want to pull up my gpa. that's why i want to get a good cds that i have faith in and not anyhow one. so please any of you out there whom is in tp and have no interest i accounting please let me have it and also tp system please pleas slot in to my timetable i really want it. i really do! This week is also one of my most tiring week. and i don't know how to meet my dear someone tmr. seriously i end at 6pm and no one is telling if she is like going anywhere after that. east side still can. but i'm empty handed? i want to give her something! what can i? oh man. suck to be broke and not having the timing right!

okay going to finish all the left over stuffs i need to do and off to bed! i'm damn tired!

GOODNIGHTS!

Early night

When night falls and lying in bed. I wish you were here by my side. Cuddle me to sleep. Sing me a lullaby. Simple wishes like this are just fantasy. Never real and will never be. Words are lies. Promises are broken. What's left is a broken heart.

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Just like other times

Switch off my phone. Or i should say i took out my bb batt cause i can't switch them off. Seriously i don't know what to do what to say. How to save it. Someone tell me? I'm the worse person anyone should be with. what have i become?

My Life?

It ain't easy being in love. All the thoughts and feelings sometimes overwhelm you. Why is it that sometimes you wish the person is more attentive to you? Is it asking too much to spend more time? I don't know. I won't want my life about just that special person. Though it's a nice thought. But also have time with my dear friends. When I see other people happiness, I do get a little envy. Why don't I have that? Is wishing more than I'm suppose to have bad? I used to be happy. I'm used to this feeling but somehow it just got worse. To the point as long as I don't think or mention about it I'm fine. A brave little girl. But how much more can I go? It's like walking on a journey with thorns in they. So hard to walk yet you wouldn't give up. My friends has their own problems. All the problems just keep coming and the only way is to be happy and just have fun when I'm with them. So what's my problem? Don't really feel like thinking too much in it. Too many possibilities. Too many negative and heartbreaking. Like what my friend say "you're scared". Maybe? I'm scared I might really break this time round. That I don't know how to pick myself up again. I fall too hard already. This is my life. A life that no one wants to have. A life that I'll make sure my friend don't go through it.

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Favourite Girl

I'm bored at home with no food and nothing to do. School is starting in 2 days time. So not looking forward to it! That's for sure. Was watching favourite girl last night! Guess who???

Nina Dobrev

She is so pretty! Oh man I want her features all! Boyfriend finds her hot too. Have been watching vampire diaries! waiting for next episode!

Boring holiday. All i did was stay home, go out and doing nothing already. i think i waste my holidays like this. This sucks man. My life has been nothing but boring. So boring that i have nothing to blog about. Sigh. hope school somehow spice up my life a little and blogshop keeping me busy! =)

Till then! xoxo, Vanessa



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Torture

Seriously I want to give up. I can't keep up. Every single time I have to be hurt this way. And you have no idea how much it hurt me.

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Day out with the girls!

Owl top from Lovevanne

If you like it hurry up and get them! they only left a few pieces. =)

Too tired for words. Pictures speaks a thousand words.

Today is a mixed of emotions.

End off with a phrase.

It doesn't pay to be nice to someone who doesn't appreciate it. So fuck off!